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Anushka Agarwal
Aug 16, 2021
In #thepurplesafehaven
I'm just a pre teen girl from india. My story might be boring but trust me it was really hard for me that time :(. Here we go:- "A 11 year old insecure girl who was never positive about herself" that's how I would describe myself 2 years ago. as a depressed lonely child I never had any friends and my family were abusive to me (they still are) specially mentally it affected me a lot I never thought positive to myself. My parents or family members never supported me with my dreams or anything. As result I was so depressed I started to hurt myself thinking this would be the only way to make me feel better. To make it worse people started fat Shaming me and bully me saying how fat I am and how I look like I eat so much. It really hurted my self esteem as I already was a sensitive and insecure person. I felt disgusted to myself and started working hard on my body. I didn't eat anything except frozen ice or water. I tried to say my parents about my problems but they just laughed it of saying "your still a kid you know nothing in life stop faking your depression for attention kid" this broke the little bit hope in me. I had no ine in my life now. Soon searching for a comfort I decided to listen music. It was the only way to make me feel better. That was the time I discovered bts's music. Tho I couldn't understand korean (later I self studied korean) I got to know the meaningful lyrics of their songs. "magic shop" "mikrokosmos" "make it right" "euphoria" "sweet night" "spring day" these songs became my comfort zone and soon I started stanning BTS and become an army. Whenever I felt sad of heartbroken I would either hear their music or watch their funny moments (mostly run BTS) I started to become more positive in myself. They taught me no matter what someone says just chase your dreams and do what makes you happy and most importantly "love myself" I admit till now I don't totally love myself bcoz as easy as it looks it's not that easy to love yourself when you constantly feel like a garbage. But now I'm trying and its helping me a lot. And bcoz of them I made many online army friends who support me no matter what. It would be a lie if I say I'm 100% happy now but I am atleast happy and have a smile on my face and don't feel lonely. I care less about those judgemental people near me. I'm a 13 y/o happy BTS army and also a multifan. Bcoz of bts I got to discover kpop and their amazing music and also the korean culture. I'm really grateful with what I have now the amount of bts funny moments that randomly come in my mind and I start laughing to their amazing lyrics of the song which never fail to make me better. I'm a Ot7 BTS stan and also seeing how they came from nothing in 2013 to being the biggest band in the world of 2021 it really really inspires. Every single member of bts (rm,jin,suga,jhope,jimin,v,jungkook) they inspire in their own way. Rm taught me to be positive. Jin taught me to love myself (worldwide handsome lol) suga taught me no matter how hard it Is if you want something you can do it. Hobi taught me to be happy. Jimin taught me to always do my best. V taught me to "no matter what someone says I'll go on my path even if I live for a day". And jungkookie our golden makanae he inspires in literally everything. I'm really happy to have them and army in my life💜and no matter how much I write it will still be less. I'm proud to say myself an army and always will be . I'm proud to be a part of this magic shop 💜 I purple you and borahae army💜 this was my story <\\3
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Anushka Agarwal
Aug 16, 2021
In #thepurplesafehaven
I'm just a pre teen girl from india. My story might be boring but trust me it was really hard for me that time :(. Here we go:- "A 11 year old insecure girl who was never positive about herself" that's how I would describe myself 2 years ago. as a depressed lonely child I never had any friends and my family were abusive to me (they still are) specially mentally it affected me a lot I never thought positive to myself. My parents or family members never supported me with my dreams or anything. As result I was so depressed I started to hurt myself thinking this would be the only way to make me feel better. To make it worse people started fat Shaming me and bully me saying how fat I am and how I look like I eat so much. It really hurted my self esteem as I already was a sensitive and insecure person. I felt disgusted to myself and started working hard on my body. I didn't eat anything except frozen ice or water. I tried to say my parents about my problems but they just laughed it of saying "your still a kid you know nothing in life stop faking your depression for attention kid" this broke the little bit hope in me. I had no ine in my life now. Soon searching for a comfort I decided to listen music. It was the only way to make me feel better. That was the time I discovered bts's music. Tho I couldn't understand korean (later I self studied korean) I got to know the meaningful lyrics of their songs. "magic shop" "mikrokosmos" "make it right" "euphoria" "sweet night" "spring day" these songs became my comfort zone and soon I started stanning BTS and become an army. Whenever I felt sad of heartbroken I would either hear their music or watch their funny moments (mostly run BTS) I started to become more positive in myself. They taught me no matter what someone says just chase your dreams and do what makes you happy and most importantly "love myself" I admit till now I don't totally love myself bcoz as easy as it looks it's not that easy to love yourself when you constantly feel like a garbage. But now I'm trying and its helping me a lot. And bcoz of them I made many online army friends who support me no matter what. It would be a lie if I say I'm 100% happy now but I am atleast happy and have a smile on my face and don't feel lonely. I care less about those judgemental people near me. I'm a 13 y/o happy BTS army and also a multifan. Bcoz of bts I got to discover kpop and their amazing music and also the korean culture. I'm really grateful with what I have now the amount of bts funny moments that randomly come in my mind and I start laughing to their amazing lyrics of the song which never fail to make me better. I'm a Ot7 BTS stan and also seeing how they came from nothing in 2013 to being the biggest band in the world of 2021 it really really inspires. Every single member of bts (rm,jin,suga,jhope,jimin,v,jungkook) they inspire in their own way. Rm taught me to be positive. Jin taught me to love myself (worldwide handsome lol) suga taught me no matter how hard it Is if you want something you can do it. Hobi taught me to be happy. Jimin taught me to always do my best. V taught me to "no matter what someone says I'll go on my path even if I live for a day". And jungkookie our golden makanae he inspires in literally everything. I'm really happy to have them and army in my life💜and no matter how much I write it will still be less. I'm proud to say myself an army and always will be . I'm proud to be a part of this magic shop 💜 I purple you and borahae army💜 this was my story <\\3
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Anushka Agarwal
Aug 16, 2021
In #thepurplesafehaven
I'm just a pre teen girl from india. My story might be boring but trust me it was really hard for me that time :(. Here we go:- "A 11 year old insecure girl who was never positive about herself" that's how I would describe myself 2 years ago. as a depressed lonely child I never had any friends and my family were abusive to me (they still are) specially mentally it affected me a lot I never thought positive to myself. My parents or family members never supported me with my dreams or anything. As result I was so depressed I started to hurt myself thinking this would be the only way to make me feel better. To make it worse people started fat Shaming me and bully me saying how fat I am and how I look like I eat so much. It really hurted my self esteem as I already was a sensitive and insecure person. I felt disgusted to myself and started working hard on my body. I didn't eat anything except frozen ice or water. I tried to say my parents about my problems but they just laughed it of saying "your still a kid you know nothing in life stop faking your depression for attention kid" this broke the little bit hope in me. I had no ine in my life now. Soon searching for a comfort I decided to listen music. It was the only way to make me feel better. That was the time I discovered bts's music. Tho I couldn't understand korean (later I self studied korean) I got to know the meaningful lyrics of their songs. "magic shop" "mikrokosmos" "make it right" "euphoria" "sweet night" "spring day" these songs became my comfort zone and soon I started stanning BTS and become an army. Whenever I felt sad of heartbroken I would either hear their music or watch their funny moments (mostly run BTS) I started to become more positive in myself. They taught me no matter what someone says just chase your dreams and do what makes you happy and most importantly "love myself" I admit till now I don't totally love myself bcoz as easy as it looks it's not that easy to love yourself when you constantly feel like a garbage. But now I'm trying and its helping me a lot. And bcoz of them I made many online army friends who support me no matter what. It would be a lie if I say I'm 100% happy now but I am atleast happy and have a smile on my face and don't feel lonely. I care less about those judgemental people near me. I'm a 13 y/o happy BTS army and also a multifan. Bcoz of bts I got to discover kpop and their amazing music and also the korean culture. I'm really grateful with what I have now the amount of bts funny moments that randomly come in my mind and I start laughing to their amazing lyrics of the song which never fail to make me better. I'm a Ot7 BTS stan and also seeing how they came from nothing in 2013 to being the biggest band in the world of 2021 it really really inspires. Every single member of bts (rm,jin,suga,jhope,jimin,v,jungkook) they inspire in their own way. Rm taught me to be positive. Jin taught me to love myself (worldwide handsome lol) suga taught me no matter how hard it Is if you want something you can do it. Hobi taught me to be happy. Jimin taught me to always do my best. V taught me to "no matter what someone says I'll go on my path even if I live for a day". And jungkookie our golden makanae he inspires in literally everything. I'm really happy to have them and army in my life💜and no matter how much I write it will still be less. I'm proud to say myself an army and always will be . I'm proud to be a part of this magic shop 💜 I purple you and borahae army💜 this was my story <\\3
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