hy am chan am 20 year old girl from kerala,indian i live in society where girls are treated as burdens ,sex toys ,trush etc . from my early childhood my family ,relatives everyone around me was busy in training me to be a good wife ,and how to be good obedient to my in law ,even in schools my teachers advise us to be kind just because am going to be someones wife, it was not acceptable for me but still i have to listen
when i was 13 i was diagnosed to PCOD and thyroid . i become fat ,fair fall and acene made my life living hell because i was judge by every person ,i was body shamed for years and got slut shamed for revealing my crush to my friends
i was abused when i talk about it to me family i was slut shamed i got depressed i still remeber one of my own family member told me that "your a girl you should have keet it to yourself what about our reputation your future " it made me think that its my fault i was depressed even try to took my life and isolated myself from everyone and everything even after reporting it to authority i was feeling like trash
i start to strav ,act like am happy in day and cry in silence . i was ruining my life but it didnt last longer when i was 18 one day two of my classmates was having a argument about BTS best songs thats when i noticed their name one of them introduced me about BTS and my frist song was. life goes on "
i start to watch their MV interviews and run bts episode it was my healing time they made me happy ,confident ,sassy,love my bodyb and most importantly to love my self aceppting my flaws who i am
now iam not feared ,depressed ,helpless
iam doing my bachelor in social work to become the voice of the oppressed ,yes now i have a dream which i live for thank you BTS for being there for me for teaching me to love my self i want to be like you guys " the light in darkness"
i purple my self forever because you 7 show me how to