I never really knew myself until I found BTS. It feels weird to others that how can someone who lives miles away and has no idea of our existence help us through this journey of survival, but BTS have always been near us with their message and music. Pandemic was a tough phase to survive in. Personally, I went through so much of troubling thoughts due to the constant depressing numbers as well as the uncertainty of the future. The saddest part was that I wasn't able to find happiness in the things which I always loved doing, like reading books and writing. For me the summer of 2020 was the summer of stolen smiles. It was all about looking up at the burning summer sun and hoping that a happy rain will soon fall. It did fall, in the form of BTS. I remember watching them for the first time. I felt a sense of hope and empowerment through their songs. Growing up hearing the constant comments on how flawed my face looked due to all the freckles and the crooked front teeth, I never considered myself lovable. Like most of the people the approval of others mattered more to me than my own opinion. Listening to BTS I found myself in a new light, in a way they opened to me the secret door of my own soul. They made me realise my self worth. They told me that I am my own kind of beautiful. In their own words, “They have shown me, I have reasons I should love myself”. I still have a long way to go to in order to learn to love myself at my lowest and I have BTS by my side in this journey. I can surely say that I have started enjoying my existence. I no more consider myself an extra weight on earth, I see myself as a flower learning to bloom even in the storm and I think it's a win!
:- Amna Ali